I'm out of school now, so I went to a job club today and listened to a presentation
from a temp-to-hire firm -there were several classmates there - and we all said hi,
but basically it was an hour and half presentation of what they have to offer.
It's probably worth posting my resume on-line with them, they have openings at least.

I wore my dark purple blouse, dark blue pencil skirt, black pumps and a purple
leather coat  -I'm back home in guy mode and it's not even 1pm yet, but I need
to go online to apply for these jobs and really when I'm around the home the
arrangement is I'm not supposed to be dressed up -it's an incentive to get a
job so I can get my own place and live full-time

Tomorrow, I have an appointment with my OB-GYN to see how I'm doing on hormones,
as far as I know, everything is going well, and then a couple hours later with
my psychiatrist, and again as far as I know I'm doing well, other than that I
really need a job

So like I say, I need a job and your probably saying "So stopping whining girl - take
the dog for a walk, come back and sit down in front of the computer for a couple hours
and apply for some jobs" -OK that's good advice,  I'll do that.

Go Vikes!  We're beating the niners 17 to 3 and a blocked field goal
at halftime -yeah

Anyways, I wore a purple blouse and blue skirt to church, went to the coffee shop
before hand and walked around Powderhorn Lake - I was kind of all pumped up
that someone was going to say something negative about me - and I have no idea
why -people were all being friendly to me, partly I've been spending so much time
in class that I haven't had to deal with just walking around in public in a skirt,
but it's a little bothersome -every one either walked by without noticing me
really or else smiling and saying hi, so I'm a little embarrassed about that.
I need to get out more because most people are OK

The sermon was really good, whenever the pastor talks about the forty years
in the Wilderness that resonates with me (hint: Stacy Wilderness is my
drag name) I sat with one long-time friend during service like I always do
(the middle picture is a blurry picture of me in the pews) and sat and chatted
with another friend after service, so that was enjoyable

Now I'm back home in guy mode watching the Vikings - I'm going to a job
club Monday morning and I may wear the same outfit (don't tell anyone)

Go Vikes!

That's my dog in her natural state -and that would be in some sort of trouble,
but she's a good dog, just misunderstood.  I took those pictures right after
my morning jog (2.5 miles) and my morning breakfast at a nearby restaurant:
a very good dutch garden pancake (about $13 and very rare because I can't
afford to eat out often) .I went to the Saturday morning jam, and had a good time,
then went to the high school homecoming /car show gig (and didn't make as much for
playing as I hoped and it was very cold and windy) then I had an gyro meal ($9 and
eating heavily into the little money I made from the gig)
then I took my dog for a walk, had a salmon meal, and am now watching
Dr Who on BBC America (I had no idea Dr Who was still on - I used to watch
it  and it was great, but I was normally drunk when I watched it and twenty years
younger)

OK since I was in guy mode all day, what does any of this have to do with
a blog about a transexual's transition?  Well the transexual would be me,
and I took my spiro today, and I have my estrodial patch on, my friend stopped
by at the gig and sang a song, she's trans and so is her friend who drove her over,
they came with two cis-women friends, another trans woman friend stopped by
to listen to me play and that was nice - my singing friend struggled a bit because
the group added a guitar player and that threw us off a bit - but she was performing
in front of a regular (i'e non-gay/drag queen audience) and I thought it was pretty
cool to give her a chance to do that.  Then when I was walking the dog a guy I met a
couple weeks ago gave me a call out of the blue and he's busy and I'm busy so
we're talking about meeting someplace, sometime but it's not like we actually
arranged anything and I don't know, other than the one date I went on to
see what it was like (and it was OK but we just walked around Como Park
and he kissed me on the cheek and I never saw him again -so my experiences
dating a guy as a girl are not very exciting) but otherwise I've never really dated
a guy (or a girl) when I was presenting as a woman, and it's such an asexual
way of living for a lot of trans people like myself, that I'm not really sure I want
to, but he did seem kind of nice for an admirer and it's such a taken for granted
thing that trnasexuals are sexual creatures going on dates with men all the time
that for me going on a real date, at least once seems like something I should try,
but I don't think this guy's advances are going to lead to anything, he'll call me again
 in a couple weeks and talk about getting together and it'll be like yeh, yeh we need
to do that sometime and that will be the end of it.

PS - I told him where I go to church, so it's not like I'm blowing him off, I just get
the sense that he's an admirer (someone who is attracted to the idea of dating guys
who wear dresses) more than that he's really attracted to me as a woman, and
I'm just not interested in dating someone who sees me as a guy, even an attractive,
exciting guy, or maybe it's my unfamiliarity of socially being in the girl role that's causing
the problem, but yeh, I don't see this leading to anything

That's the teal skirt and jacket that I wore to graduation today, and a shot of my
greyish-greenish pumps (it really is nice to look down at ones legs and see a nice
pair of heels). that's a fun outfit and pretty festive but not all that practical, and
I was eating some barbeque chicken one of my friends brought in and I was really
worried about dripping barbeque sauce on my skirt and ruin it - but that didn't
happen -I was very careful.

So I'm done with classes -yeah!!!!!! it's going to be strange not going to classes but
I really need to find a job where I can show up as a woman and as
I found out yesterday at my first interview, it's not going to be easy.
I started May 29th and Ended September 21st and had perfect attendance,
and never once showed up as a guy - and it was a good experience for me.

so I graduated, and I suppose you expect some summary of what I went through and what
I achieved and all that, but I'm really not like that - I need a job and that's got to
be my focus right now, and this should help, but I really need a job, and so I showed
up, grabbed my certificate, talked to a couple friends I'm going to keep in touch
with, met briefly with a State employee who is supposed to help me get a job and
said goodbye to the teachers at the school -I don't look back anymore -
I have to make this transition work and I'm in a better position than before,
but it is still a very precarious position, honestly, and I have to just keep looking
to use these classes and certificates to find a job -the job is what is really going
to make going full-time a reality - but I think I'm close to living as a woman  full-time
I pray that I am.

that's probably a good reason to dress up and go to church on Sunday
I have a gig tomorrow. I won't be dressed, but a trans friend will be sitting in
for a couple songs, and at a straight event - she'll just be the female singer
playing with three guys (yeh I will be one of the guys -it's
still really easy for me to pass as a guy)

So I graduated (yeah!) and I have to change the header of the blog, but I'll
do it Monday =how about my search for a job that will let me live as a woman

I left class early to be at my interview at 5pm.  I arrived about
15 minutes early and 10 minutes before 5, I got out of my truck, with my purple
leather coat on , my purse on my shoulder and a folder of resumes, and walked
into the apartment office walked up to a woman and asked to see S----
(I won't name anyone or the Apartment complex -which is standard practice in this blog)
the lady said "I'm S-----" so I identified myself and said I was here for the interview
for the maintenance position, quickly she explained that the interview was yesterday
at 5 o'clock and that since I'd missed it she had all ready reviewed the candidates
and was doing background checks on them, but that I could fill out an application,
in case the background checks came back bad, I said I could do that and asked that
since I was here and that a mistake had been made and I was keeping the interview
time I had agreed to if we could do an interview, but she didn't -so I sat in a large
conference room at a table and filled out a job application, I then left the application
with her, along with a resume, and quickly reviewed some of my qualifications, including
the Certified Pool Operator, Special Boilers License, HVAC -Residential diploma,
Building maintenance and custodial training, and asked her to contact me if she
something fell through and she needed to fill the position, and I think I did impress
her because I wss smiling and friendly and obviously had excellent qualification
(if you could get past the obvious fact that I was wearing a skirt -I would be the
ideal person for the job) -so I think I salvaged it as well as I could, and left
her with the impression that I was a serious, intelligent person who would have
been able to do the job, and that's that - I need to go create a second interview now
at another place -it;ll happen

so OK - did I mess up and go on Thursday instead of Wednesday? n I wrote it down
at the time -Wednesday was group and afterwards karoake with my friend -there was no
way I could have arranged for Wednesday, and like I said I wrote it down confirmed it
on the phone - I went on Thursday as I arranged and showed up a bit before 5pm

did she write down Wed? possibly there's really no evidence that when she saw a man
in a dress walk in her office that she suddenly made up a story and blamed me for
missing the appointment - but it is possible -certainly if you've all ready offered the
job to someone or have narrowed it down to two people it doesn't make any sense
for me to fill out an application (unless she hadn't done the selection yet or the apartments
have a high turnover of employees  ) I filled out the application to try and salvage something
out of the trip, but I really don't expect anything to come of that effort -  but I did make
a good elevator speech of my qualification, and because I was looking her in the eye,
I could tell she was impressed with my qualifications, and we did shake hands as I left.

So looking  for a job as a woman is not going to be easy, but I thought I looked pretty
good and some other people said so - that I looked good in a professional way
with the black skirt, purple velvet top and black pumps

Tomorrow is my last day of class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have a job interview tomorrow -I need to leave class early and drive straight
to the interview, in my black skirt and purple velvet top and black pumps -
I'm kind of nervous about my first interview in a skirt, but it's exciting
in a scary sort of way. The lady I am interviewing has no idea I'm going
to be wearing a skirt, but that's what I wear in public these days -I'm just
going to show up say "Hi" and take it form there.

the top photo is  in class this morning (black top, blue jeans, and black flats) and yesterday
at Como Park.  Class was OK and I sent out an application this morning and worked
my On the Job Training for the last time (I  take-off early Thursday and Friday is graduation)
so my first paid job as a person in transition is over and done with.  Two more days of class.

I went to group after class and hung around for the Karoke afterwards and that was fun
now I have to lay out my clothes for the interview.

I have an interview on Thursday, and I was texting a friend about
what to wear and it's decided - I'm going to the interview in a skirt.
It's kind of scary actually - it's really a bit scarier than I thought, but
I'm not going to get a job where I can dress, unless I show up looking
my best and looking professional and that means wearing a skirt -
oh it's scary though.

The class took the boiler test and it sounds like they did well, I got
to sleep in, get a McDonalds #13 breakfast, go jogging 3 miles with my dog
and then getting dressed up in tan size 16 jeans, brown boots and an
animal print blouse and go to Como Park (zoo and conservatory) while
they all took and the test and I thought ha, ha I've all ready got my license.
Como Park is a nice place to walk around.

Class resumed at 1pm and learned a bit about electrical stuff then worked
vacuuming -and get paid for that 1.5 hours of vacuuming.  Way back on May 29th
I showed up dressed up for the first day of classes, and now I have exactly three
days of classes left - I leave early Thursday for the interview and Friday is the
graduation so tomorrow is the last day of my working the On The Job Training,
and Thursday is the Final, so it's all winding down, but I'll keep posting
on the blog -I'm just going to change the lead to my transitioning while I
look for employment

I have some big news about the Saturday gig, but talk about that later.