I followed my recruiters advice and  am wearing slacks, not
a skirt to the interview -right now  I'm letting my nails dry
as  I type  -so I'm  wearing  size 14 black slacks  with lighter
grey stripes,   a dark  purple blouse  and black pumps  -
I  used pink  lipstick  instead  of a red, and  grey eyeliner
instead  of black -  I  have  1.5 hours until the interview starts.

yeh,  I'm  a little nervous


Update  -  the  interview went very well, there could be a
second interview next week, even as early as Monday
(I hope)

Otherwise   I'm  back in drab to  take  my  mother  to  the doctors
for a  routine  visit,  and I'm not  planning on dressing Saturday  (sigh
all  alone on a Saturday night,  sigh)
Of course I'll be dressed Sunday for church

I got add this, I just sent this Bio to my music partner - I redacted some
information but I think it's kind of cool and kind of funny:

[my legal name] was born in  Chicago and started learning  Blues harmonica
with Joe Filisko.a recognized harmonica master. In  2001, G____ received a  
$7,000 Fellowship from the State of  Illinois for playwriting, and used the money
 to "get the Hell out of Illinois".  Moving to Minneapolis, G____ continued

studies with Clint Hoover, another recognized  harmonica master.  

G____ recorded with "Little Bobby and Storm" as the solo artist on the song 

"Worried" off Little Bobby's first CD and played 12 blues festivals with him, 

including the Fargo Blues Fest, the Winter Fargo Blues Fest, The Last Ride Blues Festival,. 

and the prestigious Upper Mississippi Valley Blues Fest (this performance was 

rebroadcast on the Beale Street Caravan radio show).  G____ recent performances

include a half hour set in drag with Blues Afternoon at the Minneapolis Pride festival, 

and several performances with P____ D____(not in drag, well, most of the time). 

In Addition to playing harmonica for fun, G____ has written a Blues Musical, called 

"Catfish Bones, a Love Song to the Blues" G___ thinks referring to himself as G____ is 

really pompous, but G____ does it anyways.

and as a political thought -Obama pledged to take out Osama Bin Laden 

and Mitt Romney pledged to take out Big Bird

I took a test for a local city government position Wednesday
night -it is being held over two days to take all the applicants
for 5 open positions -300 people are applying -they were
initially expecting 800 but only 300 applied -probably 50
or so didn't show up for the test -so there were about 100
people taking the test Wednesday and another 100 or so
will take it tonight. Anyways, there were 100 guys taking the
test, white men in their thirties and forties -there were three
women, about four people of color and exactly one openly
transexual person in her tan skirt,gold sweater, and tan leather
open toed booties with the 4" heels -yeh, that would be me.

The test was held at Normandale Community college (and
after the test I wandered around the Japanese Gardens there,
on the campus,they are absolutely lovely on a calm October night)

So I showed up and no one talked to me, but then 100 unemployed
men don't want to be seen as "gay" when applying for a maintenance
position and they are scared -they're really scared they don't talk to
each other because the other men are just like them ( ie unemployed
white men who are what Mitt Romney would call victims who
don't pay taxes and collect unemployment handouts from the
government ) -I seriously can't imagine being in a room with
100 women and 30 minutes to kill and not "networking": with
at least two other women, but in a room with 100 men not one
person is talking - and that is the definition of scared -when you sit
there in your seat away from every one else, silently, waiting,
not wanting to be noticed just wanting to sit silently take the test
and leave - it's a very disturbing image - I literally can't imagine
sitting in a room with 100 women and two women not finding
something to talk about, heck I can't imagine me sitting in a room
with a 100 women and not talking to someone -that's what
normal people do

anyways I was a little uncomfortable being in a skirt around all those
men, but mainly because every one was so uncomfortable with
the whole test process , and while taking the test, which was
multiple guess I screwed up big time and put literally about 60
answers in the wrong slots -I got out of sequence and when I
went back to check my answers at the end they were all wrong,
which was horrible, so frantically I erased just about everything
with my #2 pencils and put the right answers in (and I have a
good memory for test questions -I didn't have to rethink the questions,
just glance at it and fill in the dots -it only took about 10 minutes the
second time thru, but there was a pile of eraser pieces on my skirt when
stood up to hand in my test, and I'm so glad I caught it because otherwise
I just would ave been that silly you-know-what who showed up in
a skirt and got every answer wrong and was just a joke, and now instead
I'm someone who showed up as a serious candidate for the position,
and whether I get the position or not, they have to take me seriously.



Update: I have an interview Friday morning -I have a really excellent chance
at this ob if I interview well - the person setting it up wants me to wear a pants
suit (which I don't own) or slacks instead of a skirt - and I'm going to go along
with that, but I really want to wear a skirt to the interview, I sort of feel like
I'm selling out, but I need a good job and tat's what's important and I'm still
going to wear womans' slacks and blouse and pumps and makeup and all
that so it's not like I'm a total sellout -but dang! I really wanted to wear
a skirt to the interview -honestly I am incredibly thankful for this interview,
I just really wanted to wear a skirt

it's my puppies birthday so in honor of screwball:

I might have to go out and buy a lottery ticket -

I just got the call that my prescriptions all straightened

out with the insurance company-I can go pick it up now,

but I have to get ready for a test I'm taking at 6:30 for

a city job, the pressures off a bit because I got a call

about an hour ago about a job prospect I'm really 

excited about -the interview will be Friday morning,

just setting the time now.  Got an email this morning

the band is practicing tomorrow (practices have been

hard to schedule lately) cashed a check so I had money,

so I had a dutch garden pancake breakfast at a local

restaurant (very rare occurance) I sent an email to the 

music director at my church I'm going to try practicing

with the choir (singing in public is a big fear for me, but

I think I can handle it these days) and tomorrow,

October 4th is my puppy dog's birthday, so

all in all - it's a pretty good day and like I said

why not buy a lottery ticket on a day like this.

(it's worth a shot)

I've interviewed a lot over the years and it's a pretty safe bet that if
you interview lasts 45 minutes or more you've got a real good shot
at getting hired, if it lasts less than 15 minutes, you don't have a chance
in Hell - my interview lasted 10 minutes, and they were rushing through
the interview questions so fast the two guys were stumbling over themselves
to get the interview over with - but I was polite and well qualified, and
there will be other interviews with other companies.

So, feeling a little bummed I was driving back home and because of road
construction I had to pass my former therapists office.  Now way back
about 2 years ago I went to a female gender therapist in St Paul who was
an absolute disaster, just hopelessly insensititive and incompentant and
after four sessions I terminated the sessions because they were making me
physically ill they were so bad.

several months later I decided I really needed a therapist and I went to one
who serves the gay and lesbian community and I liked her as a therapist but
I did not want to talk about any trans-related issues (which is sort of
the 500 pound gorilla in the room) so she was helpful, but I didn't
get as much out of it as if I'd been more honest, but I was coming off
a really bad experience, and was still trying to find some way to live
the rest of my life as a guy, albeit a gay guy, anyways I ran out of money
and had to stop seeing her, but I liked her as a therapist, not as much as
I really like my current psychiatrist but I liked her, and she helped me out,
so anyways I was detoured right past her office today, so I decided it
was Fate and stopped in and said hi, which was fun.

then I went to a half price book store and bought three books, each for
$2 - a book on aviation history, a book on drawing human anatomy,
and a healthy eating cookbook - so three books not one about gay
people or trans people or anything like that - Ignorance is bliss.
(I glanced at some books in the gay and trans section, they just
didn't seem that interesting -I'd love to read an interesting book
about trans people or gay people, and I know that trans people
and gay people are interesting, but the books about them aren't).

I texted a joke to a Romney supporting friend before my interview:
Q: What does a 52 year old man from Minneapolis call wearing
a black skirt, a purple blouse and high heels to job interview?
A: Dressing Conservatively.

well I thought I was dressed conservatively, and I looked nice.
I'm going to do the phone bank for the MNUnited campaign
tonight at my church (against the amendment to prohibit
same sex marriage)

Oh, the second picture is Swamp Dog, I took it of her yesterday
during our walk.

Update -I'm getting ready for my phone banking -so I'm double
dressing today (getting in makeup twice in one day) for the first
time in a very long time for a very obvious reason (it's a lot of
screwing around)  -I'm not sure what I'm going to wear but I
want to wear my platforms

My doctor emailed me that she's working on a prior authorization
to take care of the prescription issue -so for now, I wait........

Interview #3  today. I'm leaving in a couple minutes, and
I'll update how it goes -same outfit as yesterdays interview.

I had a problem with my eyeliner, and I wound up having
to take off about 90% of it with the baby lotion,  take out
a contact lens and get the black out and use some foundation
to clean it up -it sounds terrible, but actually in the end it looks
pretty good, but I'll take off makeup and redo it before I go
out again because after an hour or two  it might not look so good.

I didn't want to wear a lot of makeup to the interview, but I wore
foundation, eyeliner, mascara and lipstick and I did my nails, and of
course I was wearing a dark purple blouse, black skirt and black
pumps.  I took this picture in the conference room while I was waiting
(only a minute or two).

The interview was with a recruiter and so partly it was just a chance to
see me and do a face to face after they'd checked my references, and
partly I brought it on myself by mentioning over the phone that I
would be wearing a skirt (I won't go into my reasoning -but basically,
since the recruiter hasn't seen me and is sending me in to see someone
from another company -I had previously decided to tell her I was trans
over the phone ( I have a pretty male voice, use a male name and some
of my references have never seen me as a woman -so the possibility of
not realizing I am trans is very high) )

So I met really briefly and found out the position is contract for several months
(by which time the company will either hire me or I will have changed my gender
marker to female, my name to Stacy, and I will be living as a woman and looking
for work as a female engineer with actual experience so my prospects could be
pretty good in that situation - actually both me and the recruiter think the
position I am going for is an ideal position ( and being a technical position in
an office I could wear skirts and heels every day - which would be really
fun and terribly expensive) there is also health care after 60 days.

The interview went extremely well and they're going to pass my name
along, and they think it's an excellent match (the company does hire trans
people too)   -so I'm pretty excited about this

I have a job interview in the morning Tuesday and then I have a test for
a city position on Wednesday night -so I'm hoping I can keep busy with
the job search now that I've started it for real.

I was joking before I went on first interview with a couple guys about
how I'd dreamed my entire life about going on an interview in a skirt,
and now that I've done it a couple times -I don't know if it's all that exciting,
but getting the job - oh my that's very exciting if I can get that.

PS -I've got half my prescription and I took that today,
but I'm still "up in the air" on the other half - hopefully soon,
but going off hormones yesterday was psycollogically kind of
creepy actually - I mean I struggled so much with the decision
and am totally committed now and to just stop cold turkey like
that was really not how I want to proceed - patience, patience,
and keep bugging everyone until it's resolved.....

I'll update afterwords but I have an 11:30 interview today.
I have to get dressed -black skirt, purple velvet top, black pumps,
I think. this is my second time interviewing en femme, but I have
but I have a real shot at this one